I feel better today. I don’t know what’s going on but this feeling is positive, calming, soothing and renewing. Though I still tend to think over the same things and freak out so much but I’m getting what I’ve been craving for 2 weeks. I’m really glad that God heard my prayer. (:
Sometimes you just don’t feel worthy at all because you simply can’t forgive yourself and let it all rest in God’s gracious hands. My worries tend to surpass my faith in Him. It’s difficult to maintain that faith though I’m trying so hard to not over think about my future and my past. I’ve been living in both ends of my lifetime, and each morning is a battle between courage and discouragement.
Not talking about it verbally to anyone really kills me deep inside. I can only cling on to God’s love, praying that one day I can truly lead a peaceful life again.